I have never been a very fashion-y lady. Growing up I was convinced that dressing up immediately meant you were a floozy and no one would ever take you seriously. I was very convinced that I wasn't feminine, instead I thought I always looked like a little girl because I was always smaller and more flat chested than all of the other girls growing up. I didn't know there was a difference between being feminine while owning your sexuality and just plain being a slut. To me, these lines were blurred, so I always opted to cover myself up.
|my most boyish days|
When I met Terry I would always joke about dressing like a boy. "I'm not a girl, I'm a little boy" or "I dress like a lesbian" would always come out of me when I was feeling my least confidant. One day I made a comment and he got upset. He told me that just because I don't like to dress like a floozy it doesn't make me a little boy. He told me I'm the most feminine girl he's ever met, but in a different way, in a more ladylike way. That blew my mind! I started opening up to the idea of letting my personal style flourish, but on my own terms. It's been a little adventure to finding myself ever since.
If I had to describe my personal style I have no idea what I would say. I love fitted clothing that accents my body, I love wearing little dresses, I love trends from the 1950s, I love denim jackets, I love leaving the house and realizing I look like an old Russian lady, I love bold patterns, I love salt and pepper grey, I love my bright red vans, I love wearing my hair in a bandanna, I love short shorts, I love my dr. martens paired with a big pair of wool socks, I love plaid, I love denim vests, I love my jeans so skinny they hug my ankles.
|via color collective|
I hate wearing clothes that feel like they're going to fall off, I hate feeling like I'm trying too hard to look a certain way, I hate "loud" clothing, I hate showing my belly! (even though it's a really nice belly:) I hate itchy clothes, I hate animal print, I hate wearing visible brand names, I would never wear jogging pants, I don't even jog, I hate the phrase "high fashion", I'm not that into lacy clothing unless it's a dressy occasion (even though that's in style now I guess), and I would never ever wear something just because it's trendy!
That is my personal style. I like it because it's me, and life is too short to be anyone else.